My very first quad tensing selfie posted on my Instagram VS one taken 1st March 2016.
I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again.. Lifting heavy has seriously been on of the best things I’ve done for MYSELF both physically and mentally.
I was in such a bad place with my body for a long time.
Once upon a time I was afraid of carbs, wanted a thigh gap, skinny arms, skinny legs, skinny hips, skinny everything. I was chasing a thing that wasn’t possible for me (with my body shape!) but of course I didn’t want to accept that so I put myself through a lot of stress and bullshit.
Flash forward to my lifting days and I couldn’t give a flying fuck about a thigh gap or whatever else I wanted. And I eat a lot of carbs.
I just want to be a healthy, fit, happy, strong woman! And I am.
I thought I’d be chasing the whole “I’m not big enough I need more muscles” but honestly for once in my fucking life I’m happy and content with where I am right NOW. Of course the more I lift the more muscles mass I’ll gain and I’m excited for that but I’m no longer chasing anything. Just going along with the flow.
I can’t even put into the words the amount of hate I had for my body and how amazing it feels not to have that negative bullshit around. I’ve accepted my body as it is. I’ll always be short (155cm), I’ll always have a big booty, curvy legs and hips. It’s my body shape. I can’t change it and I’ve accepted it. I’m happy. I don’t want it to change. I’ve learned to love it and embrace it. It makes me ME.
Along the way I’ve learnt that we all need to stop comparing ourselves to others. You don’t realise how much you do it until you REALLY focus on it, notice it. It’s poison.
Something to remember.. I am me. There’s no one else like me. We may have similarities but we’re not the same. Remember that 👊🏼